What Never Fades

by  Christian A. Brown  |  May 3, 2015  |     No Comments

What an amazing week. I had a TV appearance on Kitchener’s Daytime show, with Susan Cook-Scheerer. She’s a fantastic host, and it was a pleasure getting a chance to speak with her. Once you get over the jitters that come with live-appearances, they’re actually quite fun. Then, as if things couldn’t get any more euphoric, on Wednesday I spoke with the esteemed LeGrande Green. He’s an incredibly incisive interviewer, and he drew me—gracefully and with eloquence—through many of the more profound experiences of my life. We chatted about everything from race, to acceptance, to following one’s path and dreams. I really treasured each media experience that I had this week, though especially my time with LeGrande. It’s funny how deeply and immediately he and I dove into the topic of my mother in that interview. I was touched by LeGrande’s insistence and impressions that she was always with me in some way—as in not just materially residing in the small heart shaped urn on my mantel.

 

 

Its Cynthia’s birthday on the 16th of May, right around Mother’s Day. Since I can’t give her a physical gift to keep, I thought that I would write something for her spirit to enjoy. I could have saved this post for Mother’s Day, however, I’m not looking to capitalize on sentiment. It feels good and right to do this now. Art should come from the heart, and needn’t be so commercialized and prefabbed.

For you, mom. Happy (soon to be) birthday and Mother’s Day—you were one of the best.

What Never Fades

Here we are

Familiar pacing

Sunlight in, a weightless grin

Your face a faded ghost

Behind fragile glass

Reminding me, unbinding me

From what I feel I’ve lost

It’s never gone

That light that shone

From out your smiling eyes

Brighter still, the hope that fills

A heart

A life

A boy

What would you do without you too?

But grin and burden bear?

Upon that back

Of iron track

I march to mother’s tune

No sadness here

No tears, no fear

For you have traveled far

Into light

No matter the span

When I need your hand

I reach

And find it there

—Christian A. Brown, 2015

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